Suatu ujian daripada Allah..

Innalillahi wainna ilaihi rojiun…

Kesekian kalinya, kami sekeluarga ditimpa sakit.. perhaps it’s the autumn bug? I don’t know..

Rayyann first got it on Friday, when she strated vomitting around 6 am.. she threw up phlegm mainly at that time. And a couple of time around 7-8 am.  After discussing with Dzul, we agreed that Dzul stayed at home again (he did the day before as Rayyann got a fever in the middle of the night) in the morning, while I’ll come back after I finish my work. But somehow I couldn’t focus on my work, especially after hearing she vommited again. So I went back home early, despite my unfinished work.  I brought her to the clinic, and the nurse who attended her said it’s probably viral infection. Since Rayyann vommited no more, I was fine with the no-prescription visit. I pitied her somehow, seeing her had no appetite to eat anything. Alhamdulillah she could still take the fluid. Later in the evening, her appetite made a little comeback. Syukur sekali lagi.

In the wee hours of Saturday morning, it was my turn. Threw up all the things I ate the night before. How horrible. And felt so sick throughout the day. Tapi kesian pulak kat Dzul yang kena buat almost semua benda. So I just did whatever I could. Gagahkan diri. Reminding myself this is how it would be if I’m pregnant – having morning sickness (been thinking of getting pregnant again these days..hehe..). My body ached, got slight fever. No appetite, hardly consumed anything. Alhamdulillah, towards the end of the day, I felt better.

Today, it’s Dzul’s turn. He’s been in & out of the toilet since midnight. And I didn’t even notice about it (tidur mati!?). Only once when suddenly he slept on my tummy, hugged me, and was shivering. He said he was too cold. Kesian sangat. I just rubbed his body, hoping it’d at least warm him up a bit. In my heart, while I was half asleep I prayed that Allah would reduce his uncomfort being.

Syukur, I woke up today feeling much, much better. Rayyann still not in her fittest form. She’s been having loose stool.  And she sleeps a lot, cries a lot too. May she return to her normal being soon, insyaAllah.. I pity my babies..

While I was sick yesterday, there’s nothing else on my mind but thinking that the reason why I’m being sick is probably I’ve been sinful. Sakit tu suatu ujian daripada Allah. Dan ujian itu antaranya sebagai kafarah kepada dosa2 kita.

Recalling a teaching from Ustaz Kazim in one of his classes, musibah diturunkan atas beberapa sebab:

• penghapus dosa
• balasan Allah atas kesalahan
• untuk naikkan darjat seseorang
• ujian pada keimanan..

Ya Allah, Kau ampunilah dosa2 kami.. kurniakan kami kesihatan.. Moga dengan kesihatan ini memberi kami ruang untuk terus beribadah kepadaMu. Kadangkala kami leka, tidak mengendahkan nikmat kesihatan dariMu. Ampunilah kami, Ya Rahman.. Ya Raheem..

وَأَيُّوبَ إِذۡ نَادَىٰ رَبَّهُ ۥۤ أَنِّى مَسَّنِىَ ٱلضُّرُّ وَأَنتَ أَرۡحَمُ ٱلرَّٲحِمِينَ

Dan (sebutkanlah peristiwa) Nabi Ayub, ketika dia berdoa merayu kepada Tuhannya dengan berkata: Sesungguhnya aku ditimpa penyakit, sedang Engkaulah sahaja yang lebih mengasihani daripada segala (yang lain) yang mengasihani. (Al-Anbiya:83)